Tuesday, September 30, 2003

i wan to find a nice skin for my blog.. but go to blogskins , yet still dunno which one to use.. aiyoh... sianz...
eating edamame now.. jap's green peas.. quite nice.. hehe.. think i'm gonna sleep late tonight, coz wanna watch all the episodes of DA FAN SHU.. haha.. go watch it, kinda lame, but very cute.. similar version to la bi xiao xin.. just click on the link at the side...

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/30/2003 11:29:00 PM

dear bloggy.. i'm in a moral dilemma now.. dunno which camp i shld choose to go to.. sportscamp is gathering GLs frm 1st to 3rd.. still haven't quite made up my mind yet.. haiz.. y lidat.. how i wish tt both training dates wun clash with each other.. i really wanna go for both.. but of course i can't have the best of both worlds, coz if i can, i wouldn't be having a throbbing headache now.. really painful lor.. ugh...which one shld i sign up for? aiyoh..sportscamp has gt frens + campfire + pool activities.. but lsct has also gt frens... haiyoh... my head hurts alot leh...

took bus hm today with nic, pam, jj and rayn.. all like 'se' (shagged?) de leh... sianz.. all very quiet.. then rayn kept on changing places.. so bo liaoz.. when he mentioned abt us all squeezing together in one corner when there're like alot of spaces, reminded me of molecules all squeezing into one corner.. haha..

oh toopid big bird.. today was supposed to have maths and stats lecture frm 8 to 10.. then reached skool and she said she's nt feeling well, so cancelled.. ugh... shld have sleep in at home.. so da pai leh.. nt fair de.. lecturers dun go for lessons then all the students must find stuff to do.. then students dun go for lessons must get warning letter... hai you tian li mah?? haha.. ideas contributed by seng kiat...as usual, as lame as ever.. today.. then 'lameness' frm him even spread to jj.. haha.. rao le wo ba...

sia lar.. my head really hurts alot.. haiz.... think will go pop some pills and sleep later... btw, when i reached hm today... i was really shagged and just went to lie down on my bed and slept till 7.... haha.. such a pig sia.. didn't even change my clothes...

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/30/2003 10:17:00 PM

Monday, September 29, 2003

haha, yay~ a very heavy load off my mind le.. few days ago still wondering wad to do for IAC project.. sianz.. but now i'm as free as a bird.. the woman frm NCSS called me up after my tutorial class today.. told me to go down for briefing this wed.. yay.. going to sell ducks.. but lac.. dun think too much, it's the ducks for the SG's ducks' race.. nt tt bird which costs over 10 bucks can eat one..

nothing much happened today.. met up with yi bin in the morning b4 chow chow's lecture to go buy snacks for lecture... wanted to get lays or either ruffles but changed my mind n bought bar of choc and warheads in the end.. rayn so ma fan de.. dragged me go canteen 3 buy his breakfast.. then in the end he bought a packet of vegetarian mi fen to eat in LT.. tok kong sia.. so pig leh.. then kind of caused a commotion.. wonder wad's up with ong li hui today.. shit sia, gt the same name as me... unlucky me... ugh.. she like forever PMS de lor.. or rather menopause.. sianz.. during tutorial kept on using sarcastic remarks on our gang.. say tt we nv pay attention and all.. blah blah blah.. yadder yadder yadder.. she dunno how to teach, then her notes also you gou lan, still say we dun wan to listen...she doesn't command the respect frm us... sad case wor....but in the end our wonderful-whom-she-thinks-always-nv-pay-attention-gurl-angela actually asked her a qns abt rate law.. drove her on cloud nine..

abit the sad le.. wed cannot go for GL training.. must go for the duck's briefing.. then cannot lose weight le.. aiyoh.. sianz... haha~ but nvm.. chances are yet to come.. lolz.. today's microbio prac quite fun lar.. but i hate the recording part...only like the practical part, the aseptic technique and all.. i think suja very poor thing de, coz she always dunno wad to do.. very blur, then always say the wrong things.. always different frm weiling de.. poor thing.. but she's very onz one lor.. when we invited her to the bbq, she was like 'oh, sure! tt''d be great' in her very nice slang.. haha.. wonder if she misses her hometown..

my fren is going aussie soon.. haiz.. y is everyone so rich sia.. all the money like nobody's biz de.. like just draw the money frm back never ending-ly.. like wad i used to think when i was young.. used to wonder y the atm machine always dispenses cash?? i mean, it's never ending de meh?? like everyone will get money frm it no matter wad, just push in the card and du du du du.. then the cash will come out.. no need to deposit one meh? haha... naive me when i was young... wad to do...

yOU aRe tHe sTreNgth wHen i'm wEak
yOu aRe tHe tReaSuRe tT i sEek
yOu aRe mY aL| in aLl..

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/29/2003 11:05:00 PM

Sunday, September 28, 2003

::as flies to wanton boys, are we to the gods: They kill us for their sport:: SHAKESPEARE::

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/28/2003 11:50:00 PM

ello.. i've finished reading immortal in death in the 'in death' series by j d robb a min ago.. find it nt bad.. hehe~ i like the part when Roarke sent 2 ppl to his hse so that they could design a wedding dress and also to design the hair for Dallas' wedding.. so swt... haha.. and he's like always giving her support and help in her investigations.. nt bad.. haha~

did 100 crunches just now.. sianz.. haha.. i wanna have abs!! lolz.. must jia you.. and russ, i'll nv forget the stuff u thought me.. haha.. unbelievably true.. still trying very hard to work out sometimes.. ugh.. how i wish i have extremely high metabolism.. but i still like the chubby me.. lolz.. fat sia..

thank lord for all my frens.. i feel much better after a gd cry and ranting and blabbering on my blog.. plus all the blasting of the music.. nic, jia you, frens will always be frens, no matter wad happens.. just go ahead and do wad u wanna do, dun hesitate, or else u'll regret when the chance is gone.. and tt it'll nv come back again..

i remember when i was young, till now, i still hold the belief in my mind tt i'm willing to sacrifice my life for all my frens, my family, even to those ppl whom i hate or whom i dunno at all.. nt tt i wanna prove tt i'm wei da or anything, but i think it's nt something difficult, and if i can do that, my life will have a purpose.. and tt my life is worth it.. ~CAPE DIEM~ meaning seize the day! all of us must live life to the fullest, coz life is short, and u dunno wad's gonna happen tml, so y brood over things? just pick urself up and move on! tc all! swt dreams. mUacKS~~>

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/28/2003 11:41:00 PM

! You are most Like A Sapphire !
Dark, mysterious - but unforgettable. You have a
beauty. Delicate, and shy you try to stay away from
limelight but often your intelligence puts you in
at the
deep end. You're like a Sapphire, because, your
beauty is priceless.
You're intelligent, full of opinions, and not big-
headed about it all.
Sometimes you need to put yourself out there, as
you can be a bit shy.
Congratulations ... You're the mysterious gem
everybody wants to have and learn more about.

?? Which Precious Gem Are You ??
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?? Which Angel Or Demon Are You ??
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Posted by reticent_aura at 9/28/2003 12:09:00 PM

Season = Spring
You're Most Like The Season Spring ...

Fresh faced, with a young outlook on life - you
smile at the world and expect it to smile back
at you. You're mostly a bubbly, fun - innocent
person. Described as cute possibly. However,
you're a little naive about things and tend to
be a little too trustworthy.
As the first season, It Makes you the youngest -
and so most immature - but people are inclined
to look out for and protect you.

Well done... You're the most fun of the seasons :)

?? Which Season Are You ??
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Posted by reticent_aura at 9/28/2003 11:54:00 AM

Saturday, September 27, 2003

i've tried to save money frm this wk onwards.. yet alot of things happening in my family now.. i've already saved quite abit of money, yet now it's all gone.. i didn't spend it, i've always felt guilty and bad abt spending money on myself.. and it's all gone to the expenses of the family.. this feeling sucks k.. it's like something very impt has been taken away frm, nt tt i treat money as very dear to me, but this feeling just sucks and u wun noe it unless u experienced it..

i really hate myself, hate my life to be like tt.. hoping tt there's nv me in the first place, asking myself y i've even existed in this era, with this life.. god do i deserve all this.. i've experienced alot since i was young.. all the hardships, all the obstacles seemed to be coming my way on and off.. forever.. always..sometimes, i really hope to have the courage of jennifer.. to run away from everything by dying, but i noe tt's impossible.. where r u now jenn, how are u doing? i really feel so much like seeing u sometimes.. thought of all the gd and bad times we had together, i still treasure u as much as before.. and still will in future, may u rest in peace.. life is short.. but i deemed my life as sucky.. i really wonder y.. i noe i have frens and family who care for me.. but sometimes all the things tt i'm going through just dampens my spirits alot.. there's always this civil war going on in my head.. as a true cancer, my feelings are always going up and down very swiftly..

my family might be complete. but there are a lot of things which made it xtraordinary sadly in a bad way.. dun feel like letting it known but i just ...sIGh... y am i here.............. dear lord.. y..................... is my life gonna be like tt for another 2 yrs? suddenly i hope to quit skool, and to start working and earning a salary.. and move out of my hse.. just livin on my own, be independent.. coz everything just sucks for me.. ugh.... maybe i'm just nt lucky enough to be born in a gd family.. i'm content with my current state, but wondering how some ppl can be so nt self conscious of oneself.. we shld noe wad we're doing, and be responsible.. to be able to answer to others and to oneself... but y is he lidat?? ugh... wad a dad, damn sucky!!!! just a fucked up son of a bitch.. i'm saying this, and i'm nt afraid of god saying tt i've committed a sin, coz if anyone saw how he is and all, they wun say tt i'm wrong, nt at all.. i'm resigned.. and still feeling a tinge of painfulness in my eyes.. always like to cry alot.. wad a pig i am.. .ugh.. hate myself..

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/27/2003 10:12:00 PM


ermmm.. i'm so happy now... hehe~ brought my dogs down for a walk just now, then saw my 'didi' hahah.... yay!!! long time nv see tsuyoshi imai le, since we watched a movie together with my bf this lunar new yr.. long time ago le.. hehe.. he's still as happy and gay as ever... erm.. gay as in happy.. haha, lolz.. wonder how he's doing now.. jia you wor! wo hui yong yuan zhi chi ni de, gt any probs just come find jie! miss ya.. haha.. just suddenly i thought of all the hugs i'd give him whenever i see him.. haha.. cya dude..

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/27/2003 11:16:00 AM

Friday, September 26, 2003

tuning in to gigi leung - turn left turn right..

have been listening to this song since like 1.5 wks ago.. lyrics very sweet and the rhythm is very melodious.. like it alot..

yesterday was really late for dance sports.. supposedly to start at 8.30.. then i reached at abt 8.50.. partly bcoz of the traffic jam along bishan park till after macRitchie.. in bus when it started raining.. yet still in bus when the rain stopped.. aiyoh.. and also partly bcoz of me leaving my hse late.. when i reached the studio, already saw them dancing le.. then dunno wad to do, just stand like a wallpaper and tried to learn by watching them.. coz no partner mah.. kenny dancing with another gurl.. then bridget(instructor) just grabbed my hand and danced with me.. so we danced lor.. they've already learnt a new variation of salsa.. then bridget just turned me using her hands and all, guiding me along.. whoa, tt was kewl like a strong force frm inner me forcing me to dance.. haha~ nt bad, picked it up after 3 to 4 times of practice.. then supposed to dance with this guy..alright lar.. after that had break for 5 min before we continued practising.. kenny asked me to dance with him, so i was like alright lor.. the old partner is still the best... at least we noe each other better, can have the same topic to talk about while dancing.. so funny, we kept on laughing at the 'dua han zi' dancing the salsa steps.. haha~ so eeky and geeky... lolz~ it is still the best to dance with kenny coz can crack jokes with pam and aaron.. haha... normally we'll be the ones dancing and laughing at the same time, then do all the wrong steps..

haiz.. alot of things i have to deal with in my head now.. still wondering how we're gonna do our IAC project.. haven't even confirmed a VWO.. how?? really si le.. now still trying to get in touch with NSS.. asking them abt the ducks' race thing... then another resort is to either go to this old folks' block and help them clean their hse.. or to go for beach cleaning... how??? gonna hand up report and presentation soon.. wad r we gonna do.. but still no matter wad, desmond wee raWkZ!!!! haha.. ask everyone and tt's wad they gonna say, even nic hor.. haha.. he's just so kewl.. no other teachers or lecturers i've met is as interesting and fun as him.. take 2 wks back lesson for eg.. we did this family tree thing.. then he asked prakash (very chatty yet funny indian guy) who would he like to marry, then he chose him (Desmond) haha.. lolz.. then desmond was like so onz, drew their married line and all..then carried on the story.. bLAh bLAh.... lolz.. i bet no lectureres wld do tt lor..

Rain Rain.. it was raining the whole day yesterday.. such a cooling n nice day.. i walked in the rain on my way to the bus stop before skool.. felt really awesome.. the feeling is just so great, like as if i've been cleansed, all my unhappiness and troubles gone.. just me and the rain, having the best that can be.. it cheered me up alot, nt tt i'm sad or depressed or anything like tt, but it just kind of like made me feel so calm and relaxed.. gotta start on my revision le.. yeah, start.. tt's the word.. hope i'm really startin later.. dun slack angela..

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/26/2003 07:23:00 PM

Thursday, September 25, 2003

too sleepy today le.. just wanna say tt the new series of happy tree family is out!! go check it out at the link under fave webbies!! hehe. so cute.. cya all.. i'm very sleepy.. maybe go succumb to my bed later after blogging..

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/25/2003 10:31:00 PM

Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly. There is no beginning or end. Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is mystery. Today is a gift. Dream what you want to dream, Go where you want to go, Be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/25/2003 08:53:00 PM

Wednesday, September 24, 2003


hmm.. just came back frm GL meeting just now.. went to amk library just now to search for more 'in death' series bks but to no avail.. sianz.. then went to skool ad guess wad.. haha.. found 2 'in death' bks whoa.. so elated.. the GL meeting was alright, nt bad lar, but need trainings and all.. who cares, just as long i can enjoy myself.. gonna have a camp in dec in st. john's island!! yay... i wanna go.. but gotta join the upcoming logo competition for LSCT.. sianz.. i dun draw well leh... *PENGZ*

i feel thankful for everything tt i have.. a complete family, 2 dogs.. thankful for a sch to be in and frens who hang out with me.. at least i feel happy tt i'm nt a loner and able to open myself up to ppl.. thankful for aqquaintances. they made my day... all of u ppl leave footsteps in my life.. no matter mere aqquaintances or gd frens.. nothing matters at all.. coz all of u are special..

fishes!! all of u must jia you and study hard k.. no matter wad our bond will always be there and be sure to go for the k box trip yah.. yi xian and hui ping, remember nt to give urself so much stress.. just do the best tt u can and i'm sure everything will turn out fine! tc

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/24/2003 09:46:00 PM

Sun Goddess
Goddess of the Sun and there's no doubt that you
have a bright and cheery exterior!

What element would you rein over? (For Girls)
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Posted by reticent_aura at 9/24/2003 02:31:00 PM


Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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yah, some truth in it... but i wun dare to commit suicide.. haha

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/24/2003 02:20:00 PM

Thug Bear
Thug Bear

Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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abit the vulgar huh.... wonder wad kind of care bear is this.. truly dysfunctional..haha just for fun anyway

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/24/2003 02:11:00 PM

yay!!! i've finally finished doing all my tutorials on differentiation.. so happy.. well, except all those which i dunno how to do lar.. but tt'll leave for fri huh.. so frm now.. i shld start catching up on IPC le.. just hoping i wun fail the exam paper..... at least gimme some hope.. haha..and also gonna attend IPC remedial class tml.. sianz.. but wad to do.. all bcoz i flunk my paper.. cya... gotta reach skool later by 6.15 for GL meeting....

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/24/2003 02:04:00 PM

I am Mario.

I like to jump around, and would lead a fairly
serene and aimless existence if it weren't for
my friends always getting into trouble. I love
to help out, even when it puts me at risk. I
seem to make friends with people who just can't
stay out of trouble.

What Pre-1985 Video Game Character Am I? ----- PICs & Many Outcomes
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Posted by reticent_aura at 9/24/2003 12:06:00 PM

<<>>???What Kind Of Angel R You???<<>>( NEW!!! Anime Pics )

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?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Posted by reticent_aura at 9/24/2003 11:55:00 AM

Tuesday, September 23, 2003


rushin to finish all my maths tutorials now.. haha, need to hand up by fri.. but who cares, i have a day off tml.. yay, no skool on wednesday, wad a nice slack life i have.. njoying life sia.. but really must start revision le, especially in IPC.. all bcoz of tt stupid ong lihui.. aiyoh.. or rather my fren refered to as 'livin horror' haha~ during her lecture, everybody will nt failed to make alot of noise and sleep.. coz it just sucks to the core k.. she dunno how to teach then always likes to stop to tell ppl to keep quiet... she doesn't have the respect due frm us.. wonder y.. unlike wong.. so tok kong.. always very silent.. then also nt bad, at least wun feel like sleepin..

i really dun like ppl who smoke.. wonder y they wanna pollute their own body.. damaging their own image.. is it tt cool and mature to smoke? nah.. it sucks.. we the non smokers gonna be passive smokers for 3 yrs as we wait at the bus stop for the buses.. and sigh.. rayn ar.. try nt to smoke le lar.. see u like tt makes me sad leh.. it might be diff.. but try.. will always be ready to give u a treat when u've quitted it, just like wad u said to me.. it's nt gd lor.. i always feel very sad to see young pretty gurls smoke.. kind of like eek.... i mean, u have the capital, u're still young, need u to be acting so cool and mature to attract the opposite sex by smoking? sucky..

kk, blabber finish le.. think i'll go finish up on my tutorials.. tc all.. mUacKs, swt dreams, my guardian angel will always be with u all..

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/23/2003 10:29:00 PM

Monday, September 22, 2003

gt so many stuff to do lately.. need to start revision le.. yeah... start.. haha.. exams coming up in like 5 wks... aiyoh.. have to jia you le, or else if i flunk my exams, have to repeat the modules... sianz... then also have to pass up to lye all the tutorials on differentiation.. ugh... dunno which one i haven't do leh... sianz.. again... haha" i'm now trying to pray for changye whenever i can... she's lost her baby.. haiz.. life is so unpredictable as i said.. she went through so much frm young since now.. yet now when she found her own happiness and wants to set up a cosy home, god gave her a defect child.. wonder how she's doing now.. i'll always be there for u k? no worries!! u can come to my hse whenever u need me.. since we live so near to each other... take care love ya..

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/22/2003 09:31:00 PM

the clouds gone n the sun is bright and clear again.. he msg me last night.. told me tt he's sorry and tt he's noes it's his fault for nt putting in effort.. everything is back to normal.. gotta try to save up now.. for our 3 yr anni next mth on the 19th.. dunno wad to get for him leh... anyone any gift ideas?

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/22/2003 06:26:00 PM

Sunday, September 21, 2003

GAME BOY - Born to Play
A GAME-BOY. Youre like a tomboy without the love of
sports. Reality sucks, but as long as you have
your electronics you feel you can cope. Time
goes unnoticed when youre locked in your room
hooked up to your Nintendo, rocking to your
favourite collection of guitar-driven albums.
Your virtues: Intelligence, sense-of-humour,
Your flaws: Inability to cope with real life,
action-freak spirit, reclusive nature.
EXTRA: Your personality type is the only one on
this quiz that would enjoy www.life-
blood.cjb.net. Check it out!

What kind of girl are you?
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Posted by reticent_aura at 9/21/2003 11:39:00 PM

cuddle and a kiss
cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed

What Sign of Affection Are You?
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Posted by reticent_aura at 9/21/2003 11:27:00 PM

Your: Wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and as many say
Your: Wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and
your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and
as many say "Your head is in the

What type of eyes do you have?
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Posted by reticent_aura at 9/21/2003 11:21:00 PM

Your Heart is Red

What Color is Your Heart?
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Posted by reticent_aura at 9/21/2003 11:17:00 PM

your shit.

What swear word are you?
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Posted by reticent_aura at 9/21/2003 11:14:00 PM

You are a slave

Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You?
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Posted by reticent_aura at 9/21/2003 01:38:00 PM

You represent... naivete.
You represent... naivete.
So innocent and trusting... you can be very shy at
times, but it's only because you're not sure
how to act. You give off that "I need to
be protected vibe." Remember that not all
people are good. Being too trusting will get
you easily hurt.

What feeling do you represent?
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Posted by reticent_aura at 9/21/2003 01:20:00 PM


The ULTIMATE personality test
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Posted by reticent_aura at 9/21/2003 01:09:00 PM

just had my lunch at hm swt hm.. been reading the 17th bk (Purity in Death) in the 'in death' series by J. D. Robb aka nora roberts.. so nice.. just really gt engrossed and still indulging in the story.. this bk depicts the story of lieutanent eve dallas looking into the case abt this PURITY SEEKERS which created this virus which nt only spread to computers, it also spread itself to users which are termed as social parasites.. they create trouble in society and deserves to die.. but as they investigate the case, they themselves also got infected by the virus, causing neurological effect and killing them in a very gross way.. got hooked to this series.. still wondering whether i shld go reserve the bks frm library or just go buy and collect the whole series.. the 19th bk just came out this mth.. gosh... shld i collect or nt... it'll cost so much money..

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/21/2003 12:50:00 PM

::simplicity makes life happier::

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/21/2003 12:59:00 AM

J. Lo
Ur more suttle in ur hair style. U might like to be
curly or have hair with volume.

Witch Hair style would you have.
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shld i go for ceramic perm?

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/21/2003 12:57:00 AM

My Immortal
My Immortal.

Your Lyrics

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

What Evanescence song are you?
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hmph.. just nice tt this is the song which i like best frm evanescence.. morbid and nice

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/21/2003 12:54:00 AM

Sweet and fruity, you drink to have fun and love every minute of it!
Congratulations!! You're a strawberry daquiri!!

What Drink Are You?
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Posted by reticent_aura at 9/21/2003 12:45:00 AM

You're the cheerful smile,the one that's truly
happy with almost everything you do and would
never change your life.

What Kind of Smile are You?
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Posted by reticent_aura at 9/21/2003 12:29:00 AM

i'm drinkin choc milk to calm my feelings down.. just had a heated sms quarrel with him again..had a lil teary session with my eyes.. still feeling the puffy tinge in it.. i started sending him a FWD msg saying tt if i have an angel holding a hammer hitting anyone to give him/her a lil love, i'll make sure tt it hit him alot of times.. haiz.. then it all started.. today when i went to pay my fees after meeting, i was all alone.. and asked him whether he wanna meet up with me for lunch or anything.. kept on smsing to ask him.. coz he asked me yesterday whether i wanted to go out with him.. well well.. waited for a few hrs at kfc and no sms received frm him.. so i went hm.. back to sms session.. i ask him for a valid reason y he didn't even bother to give me a call or sms.. at least tell me tt he's nt free or wad.. but he told me tt he was pigging in bed.. i was kind of fuming and very sad.. i mean, can u imagine.. haiz.. asked him out on wed coz i had 5 hrs break.. then last min in the morning said cannot make it coz teacher wanna see his mum.. nvm... i accept tt.. so i asked jinwei out to acc me.. then he's not very happy abt me wanting to watch a movie alone with him.. fine.... be tt way..
then on fri again it's our anni.. i wanted to pass him the present.. so asked him if he can meet me after skool and fetch me hm... or either for dinner.. last min cancelled again and said need to run errands and buy medicine.. ok... fine for all tt... then now.. wad a great excuse, i was pigging in bed mah.. for all the time tt i've tried to spend with him during my break and for all the time tt he spent with me this week which is his break.. wad a wonderful difference.. i tried my best, yet tt is the ans tt i get.. great.. i got the present for him.. yet i dun even dare to spend the money on myself.. yet tt is all tt i got back frm him.. i sms him, told him tt he's got himself a great excuse, and if he continues to be passive in this relationship, it'll soon dissolved like it nv happened b4.. carried on to last sms.. i told him tt he sucks.. brought misery to my life and told him to go make love to his bed and say bye to his model (present) and dun ever msg me again... tt's all.. end of show.. i switched off my phone after tt.. fearing of being hurt any deeper... maybe i shld just be cold to everything and just let things be wad they are.. just take on a passive approach so tt i wun make myself miserable.. i noe i'm too sensitive.. but i'm nt asking for much..

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/21/2003 12:08:00 AM

Saturday, September 20, 2003

i'm feelin really sucky today.. feelings rule the minds of human..i wonder y is tt we quarrelled alot these days.. something just seems to be missing and i'm telling myself nt to give up.. nt to get tired of this kind of life.. but i need a break, i need someone to bring laughter and joy to my life.. facts are hard to accept.. the person u love most is normally the person u hurts u the most.. coz u're too deep into this relationship with him/her, and u're too deep into him/her.. so therefore when he/she hurts u, u're like almost on a pshychological breakdown.. i've once encountered throbbing physical chest pain as well as pshycologically heartache when i was hurt.. the feelin is really terrible.. so normally i'll break myself down by listening to rock or heavy metal music... or another option is to cry myself out while listening to slow love songs.. life is unpredictable.. human is contradictory, they say one thing yet they totally mean another thing.. some bad things which happened might be a blessing in disguise, while some bad things which happened might just be really bad for the sake of it.. i hardly smile today.. so miraculous huh.. spent the whole day alone, myself.. walked alone in the rain... drenched myself, and the feeling is truly great.. the rain washed away all my weariness and lifelessness.. n the consequence is tt i'm down with a terrible headache.. have already taken panadol and short nap but to no avail.. guess i'll just have to leave with tt... sucks..

Therre's gotta be more to life
than chasing down every temporary high
to satisfy me.
Cuz the more that I'm
trippin' up thinking there must be more to life.
Well it's life, but I'm sure.
There's gotta be more...
than wanting more.

i thought to myself.. realised tti've nv been cajoled by him whenever we quarrelled.. woman always likes to be cheered up and cajoled by guys after they quarreled with each other.. and i believe every woman likes tt.. me too.. but the ans he can give me is tt i dunno how to... haiz... misery... i mean, isn't it common sense and every guy shld noe it? it's as easy as giving a call and apologise and swt talk.. or as major as giving a present to u... wad can be as easy as tt? guy's pride is so darn sucky ugh... for a gurl u love, isn't it worthy to swallow ur pride? wad's so difficult? i believe tt i've faithful enough to stand by him whenever something happens.. so dun i deserve something.. the feelin sucks k.. it really sucks to the core.. i listened to him, i talked to him..i do everything i can.. my love is given out unconditionally to everyone.. i dun wan anything back, but at least give me happiness... i'm still a human after all am i right? and i'm really sensitive.. too sensitive.. think i'll take 4 pills later.. if nt i'll die of my headache.. i wan to be taken away frm my problems, i'm nt trying to avoid, just trying to take a break.. and i promise i'll move on frm here.. i'll keep movin on.. coz life is always beautiful.. it contains in itself alot of surprises waiting to be uncovered.. but u gotta find ur own happiness, true happiness.. ok.. i'll stop ranting le.. bloggy,u're my confidante.. haha..~

indulging in mylifegotcoldbygirlsaloud

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/20/2003 09:28:00 PM

You're Perfect ^^
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.

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Posted by reticent_aura at 9/20/2003 04:13:00 PM

You have a dominant kiss- you take charge and make
sure your partner can feel it! Done artfully,
it can be very satisfactory if he/she is into
you playing the dominant role MEORW!

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Posted by reticent_aura at 9/20/2003 03:52:00 PM

Friday, September 19, 2003


this song is nice.. like the rhythm alot.. yay, i've been selected to be GL le.. so happy.. at least i'm sure tt my days staying at home and stoning wun be as much as ever..haha~i guess tt most of the ppl who went for the interview got in, including alot of peeps frm mo2.. like very easy to get in leh.. sheesh.. haha..

haiz.. to my significant other.. today cannot see u after skool, guess how sad i was.. noe u couldn't make it, but still held in my heart a lil stream of hope.. forget it lar.. do u treat me as if i'm just an ordinary friend in your life? i feel far away frm u.. drifted apart.. and heart torn apart.. when i want to go out with u, u nt free.. wonder when u're really free.... u're nt happy with me going out with jin wei i noe, but who can i turn to when i need someone? u're nt there for me.. my frens are even more stable and they just seemed like a bridge linking me to them.. maybe i'm just crappin, but this is how i feel.. kind of like hmmm nvm... nuttin to say le.. to my bloggy i love u always..

ppl wonder how come i can say i love u so easily to others.. i can... coz tt's the truth.. i truly love them.. but the love varies... kins to frens to my beloved one.. but of course to my partner, i'd nt say it too casually.. i'd say it frm the bottom of my heart and really meant it.. saying it too many times to one person would make him/her tired.. pshychological tired i mean.. then the 3 words wun mean anything anymore..

kk, i go le.. listenin to kelly clarkson at perfect 10 top 20 countdown now...


Posted by reticent_aura at 9/19/2003 09:10:00 PM

Rawking to the musik finest dreams by RICHARD_X KELIS

aiyoh. so sianz... in com lab now doing my own stuff.. suppose to go for maths pract now de, but damn slack sia, feel so much like stoning and zeeing.. zzzZZZ... just finished touching on IPC slides.. gonna have the presentation later, so nervous sia. haha, nt really lar.. but so reluctant to do it..

happy 2 yrs & 11 mths anni to my darling!!! hehe... so sorry tt i cannot tahan last night, slept so early.. didn't even set my alarm clock.. just collapse on the bed and my soul drifted away.. darn darren, WTF... woke me up at 12 + when i'm like so happy and peacefully sleeping.. didn't noe my phone can ring so loud till ytd.. ugh... he ask me wanna chat or nt, i was like stop bothering me lar, i wanna sleep... sorry dar dar, i wanted to msg u at 12 midnight to wish u happy anni... but really very sleepy le.. wo you xin wu li... haha.. love ya always..

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/19/2003 02:08:00 PM

Thursday, September 18, 2003


sIgh.. sorry for killin an angel 1 second ago~ i feel so darn guilty.. spent alot today leh, brought 40 bucks out left only 5 bucks, sad sia.. today for dance sports, i've learnt a new variation of salsa and also did revision of cha cha with kenny.. today's session quite funny, he started stepping on my toes when dancing salsa, then i stepped on his after tt.. but nt bad lar, had a great time..

went to orchard straight away to pass my 5 hrs break.. but as usual, the wondeful angelic me just can't be bothered to go back to skool for ocom at 3.. haha, ended up meeting my 'kor' at 11+ and just hang out in town.. went to heeren, cine, then back to heeren and finally to taka.. went to the craziest toy fair at taka and 'kor' told me something which might interest my significant other.. there's this FF X monster collection selling at 10 bucks each figurine.. figured tt my darlin might like coz he's gt the number 1, so i got the iron giant which is no 2.. but after tt, i realised tt i felt extremely guilty coz i really had very lil money left.. and yet still hasn't gotten myself a new pair or slippers.. no way manz... but heck lar, went to kino and bought 2 comics in the end, announcing only 5 bucks left in my pouchy.. haiz, sad sia, but still have a sense of achievement.. lolz. wad's up with me manz.. xiaoz le.. yay!!! tml is our 2 yrs 11 mths anni le... so fast.. 1 mth later we'd have been together for 3 yrs.. love ya darlin, frm the bottom of my heart, life will always e great with u ard, well, as long as u dun make me miserable, hahah, tc ya!

aiyoh.. tml gonna have my IPC presentation le.. then i haven't do my MOL at all.. sia larz, all bcoz of the scientific notebk software, gt some prob, cannot even load the qns, dun care le lar.. at most let lye drill.. like as if she will.. sure to get warning letter frm norman regarding ocom soon.. coz i've already skipped it twice le..

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/18/2003 07:52:00 PM

hehe, so happy!! i'm now using my laptop, gt internet connection le.. hehe, my bro just came back with a router... so happy.. i dun need to camp out at my bro's rm with his 21inch monitor.. so crazy.. love ya lappy and bloggy! u're the best, cya..

but still abit disappointed leh.. coz shihan last minute biang me, told me tt he gotta go skool with his mum tml to meet his teacher abt his attendence.. so ma fan.. then our date cancelled lor.. so sad, guess i'll just hang out with my kor tml ba.. so sianz..

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/18/2003 12:08:00 AM

Wednesday, September 17, 2003

Lion King!

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feelin kinda excited abt all the stuff i'm engaged in

hEhe~ had a quite slack day today.. completed my share of slides for IPC project.. hOoRay! hehe.. supposed to go for IPC remedial class today at 5.. then dun care lar.. since she's only touching up on lectures 1 - 3, just find any excuse to give her when she ask lor..

i love today's weather.. so cooling and nice.. i started on a bk Glory in death written by J D Robb aka nora roberts..guess i'll try to read the whole series, find it quite nice.. it depicts this leiutenant ability to solve crimes and yet her heart is ruled by love so if one day Roarke(her lover) is involved in a case, wad is she gonna do?

listened to all 4 one cd in the late afternoon.. found it too boring except for the song i swear.. haha... so i guess country doesn't suits me at all.. hehe..

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/17/2003 07:39:00 PM

Tuesday, September 16, 2003

feelin abit tired and listening to alison krauss+union station album now

hello dudes and dudettes.. just came back frm my dance practice.. learnt some new variations today.. but still considering whether to join or nt, coz 30 bucks per mth leh.. plus need to get the pair of shoes which is like 160+ bucks lor.. so ex.. imagine how much i can save w/o paying the fees and the shoes per yr.. but i wan a cca leh.. if nt life will be so boring.. sianZ

went for LSCT GL interview today after tutorial at 5.. found it quite alright, but i guess it doesn't matter whether i can be one or nt, guess i'll be trying out for sportscamp GL also.. hehe.. life is beautiful/so beautiful/it's beautiful to me..

reached skool at 1 today. didn't go for the earlier lectures coz had flu.. so sad, cannot go to skool together with my darlin.. shihan stayed over at my hse last night, then went for skool early in the morning at 7 + for his enrichment classes.. we had 'sweetheart' and 'mango mousse' for breakfast, so nice.. must go try ok? frm 4 leaves de.

so many things to do this wk.. gotta finish up my slides on IPC, MOL (maths online) and maths tutorial.. microbio test is also coming up, must jia you k angela? hehe~ cya all.. mUacKS, swt dreams, well at least if u're sleeping early, my angel will always be blessing all of ya!

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/16/2003 09:37:00 PM

Sunday, September 14, 2003

feelin cold hungry and sleepy

hmm.. i've just completed the IPC tutorial.. but left the qns on the Hess' law blank.. stupid man to come up with all this complicated stuff.
so sleepy.. i've been cheated last night, haha~ when i went over to my bf's hse in the evening last night with 'kor', he told me tt nobody is stayin overnight except me, coz all of them r nt free and some CMI.. sianz.. plannin on watchin late night movie with his sista and him, but didn't in the end, just watched lavender and chatted with shihan till like 4 plus...or is it through the night? his mum tok kong sia, drank almost the whole bottle of red wine but suffered frm abit of hangover after tt... nap for a while, then came out to vomit.. lolz~
the steamboat was nt bad.. but didn't really have my full, kinda pig i am.. ate cup noodle for supper..

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/14/2003 05:31:00 PM

Saturday, September 13, 2003

My inner child is sixteen years old today

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.

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still feelin very excited..

so excited, y? haha... coz i'm gonna go to my bf's hse later for steamboat and slumber party! hooray~haha.. cheers to tt dudes and dudettes... hehe.. some of his classmates will be going plus some of our very close frens.. kinda happy tt my mum actually agreed to tt.. coz normally he'll always be the one staying over at my hse, nt me.. suddenly think tt my mum is being very kind..haha.. i shall play my fill tonight coz i've worked hard for my common tests and reaped wad i sowed.. yah? haha miss ya all frens..

btw, i might nt be able to blog for the next few days le.. haha, partly due to my toopid wireless network.. always givin us problems.. my bro took it away le.. sObZ.. then now left with my pc.. haiz... so inconvenient.. sia larz~ make sure tt i'm nt too lazy to go to my bro's rm lor... well till then, u're tuning in to angela.. haha, crappy huh.. suddenly thought of REINA, always calling me ANG-GAY-LAA.... haha~kinda missed it though.. cya all, tc! cheers and mUacKS..

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/13/2003 01:35:00 PM

Friday, September 12, 2003

watchin holland village now, feelin very very happy and extremely excited, tml u all will noe le, or shld i say sun?

aiyoh.. met another des guy today le.. y i so unlucky.. tis guy just added me to his msn contact list and started a convy with me.. wanna hear it out? but this one didn't last long though..

me:hello, who r u?
PG:i got ur contact frm face pix.com, found ur photo quite nice
PG: u attached?
PG:love him alot?
PG:how long ald?
me:almost 2 yrs 11 mths le
PG:wah, so long..
can i be ur 2nd bf?
me:nah, i'm very faithful.. dun be des lar..
PG:ever had sex b4 with ur bf?
me:hmph.. kaypoism
PG: tell me lar, i've had b4, no big deal mah

then i deleted him le... haha he's MUTATED...
i'm so happy today!!! no words can describe how i feel.. haha, nah lar, just bullshiting, nt TT happy lar, just feelin contented with my marks.. i gt 80 marks exactly for my maths and stats paper!!! just as i've expected leh~ unbelievable... maybe i really have psychic powers.. lalala~oh yah, n another thing.. i gt back my IPC prac also.. luckily didn't fail.. was hoping nt to coz really afraid tt i'll flunk really badly for my calculations..
saw kai siong today at the 'fair' outside np co op.. he asked me a very funny yet lame qns, 'where's ur bf'? haha.. hmph.. but he's still as and charming as ever, no wonder he's voted as molecule's best looking male gl... haha...

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/12/2003 08:06:00 PM

Thursday, September 11, 2003

listenin to chi pang by lin jun jie now..

ugh... tis guy frm temasek poly is so so so irritating... suddenly added me on msn and chatted with me... then i was thinking, fine lor, no harm, just a guy mah.. then chatted for a while lor.. this is towards the end of the convy:

DG: i wan to leave le leh, nv give me a kiss ar..
me:it's either u leave or u wait, either way, no kiss
DG:(started using emoticons to express him crying, rose wilting, blah blah)
me:u're getting on my nerves
DG: am i in ur heart too?
me: no, dun worry, absolutely nt, everyone but u
DG: oh really? u so mean, nv care abt my feelings
me: wad's wrong with u?
DG: notin, except tt i've fallen for u
me: haha, wad a des guy
---------silence-----------(frm only me of cuz)
DG: helloooooooooo, u there?
me: just get the hell out of my face lar, u're really such a des guy
DG: ok, sorry to disturb u..
--------silence-------------(duh, coz i've blocked him le)

btw, DG means des guy..
oh manz, wad a guy.. so sucky.. was only afraid tt he'd do stuff to my e mail add...
kena b4 k, somebody just chatted with me, then said tt i'm a les and got my add frm this porn site... kaoz.. but it's all over le

so sad.. today nv go for dance sports.. think tt i'm really such a pig k, woken up by a call frm my fren asking if i'm reaching skool or nt.. was like no way manz.. it's 8 le.. si liao...haiz..but dun wanna go for make up class leh, so bu yuan yi.. then they learn some variations of salsa today leh..haiz
:( no way... really blamed myself for turning in late last night..

well, after IAC and OCOM classes today, i went to atrium for the LSCT entrepreneurship fair, yay, LSCT raWkZ.. haha.. i've gotten myself a shimmery temp tattoo at my right arm with 2 of my gurlfrens.. so nice hehe~ then went hm after accompanying them till 5.30 when they go for their cca n class..

my bro just bought a 21 inch com monitor.. said tt it meant for tv and com use de..kewl sia.. but i think it's very bulky and heavy duty...haha, coz lousy mah, nt lcd one.. lolz~
tml gonna get back MST1 paper le, hope tt i'll get at least 80 %, wish me luck k? tml i shall tell u lil bloggy how much i've gotten.

listening to staind - so far away now~happy midautumn festival to everyone!! haiz, suddenly feeling kinda bored this day leh.. feelin a lil nostalgic now, thinking of all the days i used to celebrate this day with my neighbours. a gang of us, abt 7, wld play together and especially on this day, be a lil mischievous n play with fire.. from playing plastic lighted lanterns with music to paper lanterns n to playin with candles and fire instead of lanterns.. it's just so much fun for all of us.. but think i shld graduated frm it now le.. still feel like going to chinese garden and celebrate, kinda regret nt getting the tics..

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/11/2003 10:28:00 PM

Wednesday, September 10, 2003

a lil stressed over stuff, but still njoying life

woke up at 9 + today, had my daily routine (including swtching on my lappy)... played daidee and did some research on my IPC PW.. kinda uptight over stuff (a) whether pam and i can complete our IPC PW by next wk.. (b) i still haven't thought of a topic for my 5 min oral presentation!!! gotta give the topic to toopid norman by tml.. (c) IAC (individual and community) project how?? haven't contact any organisations at all... die le... how to report to shuai ge desmond tml? haiz.... maybe i'll just give a call to national parks board tml during my 3 hrs break..

i went jurong pt to watch turn left turn right with shihan.... caught the 2.35 pm show.. find it nt bad, a very romantic and touching show... but still, i must admit tt the plot is a lil too unrealistic...haha~ how can this guy and this gurl kept on walking near to each other and even stayed near each other nt notice each other at all? weird.. haha..

anyway, it's dance sports tml le.. yay!! hehe... so excited, dunno wad variation we gonna learn tml.

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/10/2003 10:15:00 PM

Tuesday, September 09, 2003

feelin a lil happy, with a tinge of excitement..

hey bloggy, i've given u a new face le.... i like the loud colors against the black BG... so nice... hehe...~ i'm so happy today k... gt back my microbiology test paper during MB tutorial.... hehe.... gives me motivation to work harder next time... i gt 75/100... even though still nt VERY gd, but at least it kind of makes me happy... hmph.. gonna get back my maths and stats I paper on fri... the paper which i've the most confidence in... but just wun put my hopes too high... haha.... i'll just go with the flow.... wad will be will be, que sara sara... hahaha crappy huh.. i've gotten the GL(grp leader) form for LSCT camp le... hehe... gonna go for it n enjoy myself...yay... btw junjie, dun be too worried.. haha.. this piggy angel here will make sure tt u wun get another 70 for MST1, well if u really do, then dun ever wanna play blackjack with u le... hahaha~ tc all, god bless... mUacKs" and erm.... junjie... grow up.. ahhaa dun be as crazy as u r today..haha and sk, u're getting lamer n lamer le... DUN BE..i'm really very cold sitting next to u today..lol or else i'll always show u this face (-_-''')

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/09/2003 08:47:00 PM

Monday, September 08, 2003

dear bloggy.... i'm very sad and yet angry today... haiz.... even cried le... but got over it le... i gt back my inorganic and physical chem test today... flunk it, gt 49.5/100..... so sad coz it's my first poly test paper.... hoping tt i can get gd grades...... the thing which made me kinda pissed off was tt when ms ong gave me my paper, she was like "angela, u nv study is it?" i was like really angry lor... at least she could have told me if i needed help, i can go approach her, but she's like casting me aside and labelling me as a slacker, i'm like wad the heck lor.. i did studied hard lor..... haiz..... wad to do..... feeling sad for myself and pissed off with her.... but i'm over it le.... wun see her next semester anyway..... at least hope nt...but thankful for frens who cheered me up, thx alot, junjie, thx for ur bu dong song.... hehhe... very nice... tc all, love ya

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/08/2003 09:54:00 PM

Sunday, September 07, 2003

dear blog... today is a very warm day, bathed 3 times in all le... tml going skool... so bu yuan yi... gonna have a long day tml frm 10 till 5... also have microbio prac... so sianz.... but i'm excited to see all my classmates and lecture frens again..... 2 wks nv see them le... i wonder how i'd fare for my common tests... i'll just lay my fate in god's hands... hehe~ my dog is sleepin so peacefully beneath my chair can't even move it, or else it'd wake him up.... so swt.... think i'm gonna grab xiaohei (jap chin) to sleep with me later le... after listening to some nice love songs like i could fall in love, never gonna leave your side and music of my heart, suddenly feel very nostalgic and feel like blogging....

my dar dar and me had went through alot of things... in which they're really extreme... hmph... those who noe me well u all wld noe ba.... so swt right.... imagine for an almost 3 yrs relationship, wad have we encountered and overcame so far and how far we can go.... i feel so amazed tt love has such a strong power.. life has been much more meaningful and special with him ard.. at least i noe tt he truly cares alot abt me.. our 2 yrs 10 mths anni gonna come soon le... i've been trying to save up to get a wallet for him.. maybe either as a 3 yr anni prezzie or as his burfday prezzie..

i just wanna tell tt i've nv regretted being with u
coz u always bring laughter and joy to my life
for all the things that have happened to us, i've stood by u
even when i quarrelled with u,
i hope tt u'll noe, tt i cherish u alot
and that i hope u'll treat me the same way
thx for being there when i needed u
thx for all the love, care and concern..
u're really a best fren and true lover for me i can say
i dun mind u studying in ite now, i dun mind at all..
i believe u can make ur mark someday
i have faith in u
and trust always
just believe in yourself and dun step back
be bold and do wad u wanna do
love u always
frm the bottom of my heart

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/07/2003 11:43:00 PM

greetings bloggy! i had a great time last night with my darlin...... we went to marina promenade and watched the sunset.... he sang a very nice song to me - dong jie by lin jun jie.... so sweet.... wishing tt our world can be freeze..... and i'm thankful for all the friends who are always with me.... love ya all! hugZ & kisses!

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/07/2003 01:20:00 PM

oh yah morning all... btw... SFOGS.com has gt 2 new stories and an article... the article is quite alright but nt quite scary i think... do go check out the other articles especially abt the labrador park and pulau ubin... nt bad i concluded....
i feel so bad of making the decision of nt going for the dinner with the old folks later on.... hmph.... but i'm tired.... and it's like a whole day's event.... sowee pam, san and jy.... i didn't mean it..... i need the whole day to chill out and get ready for skool next day.

so bored at hm... therefore, i'm gonna go rent some vcds to watch later on... especially xi yuan lu II last episode.... didn't catch it on channel 55... so sad..... it's been such a warm day... and i'm like feeling kind of roasted now.... shall go take a bath later b4 i pig... cya bloggy... love u ppl... muaCkz....

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/07/2003 12:19:00 AM

Saturday, September 06, 2003

dear bloggy,
i had a really gd night's sleep last night... i was feelin very sweet the whole night coz i had a very nice convy with shihan... he really said alot of stuff - said tt he realise tt apart frm his family members, i was the only one who truly cares abt him, even when we quarrelled.... therefore, he said tt he wans me to be his wife, so tt he can be with me always and take care of me..... hmph...... haha.... xin tian tian le...... he sent me a msg on 8th july 2003 - dear, i wan u to noe tt i'll be waiting for tt day for u to say yes.... be it 5 yrs or 10 yrs.... i'll wait for the very day to come... the day which we'll really be together, for life.... and the 3 words comes after tt..... hehe.... .... so swt.... hehe...

ate le myojo mee pok dry for my brunch...yay!!! i'll be going to my favourite place - marina promenade later... in case for those who might nt noe where it is, it's the 'lovers paradise' near esplanade colors of the bay..... must find sometime to go k? it's really a nice place.....

think tt i have a plan of going to genting and kl at the end of the yr with my family and shihan.... shihan said he wanna go back to the Chin Swee (is it lidat? i forgot le) temple to repay the gods for their granting of his wish.... for our trip in feb 2003, he asked of the gods there for his dad to recover faster frm his stroke and my family to be safe..... well, it all came true, think it's time for him to repay the gods...

i'm angela, i'm merciful, i'm stong in heart, i'm trustful, i'm faithful, ain't it right shaohong? thx for ur motivation always and i have faith in u tt u can make it through this yr alright? just mug and u'll be able to do it.... as for daryl... i dunno wad to do with him... hope tt lynn can knock some sense into him... take gd care of urself.....
this song is really nice and lyrics very meaningful... listen to it sometime k? (can ask me to send to u if u wan) sorry tt i can only include some of the song lyrics coz they lyrics is too long.....dun worry, it's nice and all, nt like some of JT's screeching songs....

where is the love - black eyed peas feat justin.timberlake

(the verse which i like best:)
I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our own direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive to lovers bound

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/06/2003 11:31:00 AM

Friday, September 05, 2003

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
(1st Corinthians 13:13)

i'm nt a christian, neither am i against god... but i believe in myself and i strongly agree with the above stated verse... 1st corinthians chapter 13 has always been my favourite as it speaks of the character of love in man... i believe tt it's the greatest thing on earth and it truly keeps me motivated and cherish my life even more... many ppl have walked into my life, and i truly appreciate wad some of them has done for me... they've been great ppl...

dear bloggy, i was woken up in the morning by a sms.... mrs low told me to meet up with her today coz she wanna pass a present to me... i went to smss at 2+ and saw alot ppl.... bought 3 hand-made candles frm my juniors, said the money wld go to some old folks home... next met up with low and chatted for a while b4 she went hm to pamper her 'spoilt' daughter hahaha".... she gave me this gold necklace with an abacus (representing maths) pendent to me.... said she bought it frm MUAR... (is it spelt this way?) i was kind of touched...coz was thinking she bought it for me for wad?? and i betcha it must have been ex... coz it's real and it's kinda heavy.... hmph.... i feel so guilty suddenly, i wonder y... love is kind and does nt boast... when i heard tt her daughter cuddles the bear which i gave to her everynight when she goes to sleep... i feel quite happy and really wld like to see how siying looks like... hehe~ must be cute huh...

yay!!! gotta meet with my dar dar tml le... long time nv see him le..... so excited and happy... i prefer nt seeing him too frequent actually... absence makes the heart fonder ain't it true?

jewel - stand

Walk in a corner shop
See a shoplifting cop
See the old lady with a gun
See the hero try 2 run
Nothing's what it seems, I mean
It's not all dirty, but it's not all clean
There's children paying bills
There's monks buying thrills
There's pride for sale in magazines
There's pills for rent 2 make u clean
Marvin Gaye, there's no brother, brother
Woody Guthrie's land can't feed Mother


Mothers weep, children sleep
So much violence ends in silence
It's a shame there's no one 2 blame
For all the pain that life brings
If u will just take me It might just complete me
And together we can make a stand

A waitress brings me lunch
We meet but do not touch
On TV, D.C. is selling lies
While in the corner, King's dream dies
Go 2 the counter, pay for me and my friend
A homeless man pulls out a roll, says it's on him
The mayor has no cash
He said he spent it on hookers and hash


U will love me, I will love u


Posted by reticent_aura at 9/05/2003 06:14:00 PM

Thursday, September 04, 2003

hello bloggy!!! this is the 1st time i start my own bloggy and am quite excited about it!!! hehe~ anyway... i'll be posting all my thoughts, feelings and everyday adventure (tt's if i have) into this bloggy!!! just a lil about myself, i'm studying in ngee ann polytechnic right now, taking biomedic science as my current course.. and i love the beach, sun and music definitely!!! i'm basically a junkie person for music... frm ballads, R&B to heavy metal and rock...
i love to make new frens but would always keep my old frens... remember to drop by often!!!

i had my last paper yesterday.... inorganic and physical chem.... think it really sucks k....... haiz... sigH..... i almost forgot to bring my calculator, went back hm to get it... but when i reached skool, i realised tt i've also forgotten to bring my whole pencil case... wad a joke~" i just hope i can at least get a pass for tt paper so tt i wun need to go through a retest... i've finished the paper.. but wrote crap mostly....

mrs soong (my very dramatic IPC prac lecturer) gave us an assignment to do yesterday... and we're suppose to pass it up 2 wks later... we did balloting for our topics we're gonna touch on for our slide presentation..... at least i chose a cool easy and interestin topic - nuclear plant disaster, cool right? haha ~ at least it's nt like other stupid topics like acid rain, agent orange blah blah... hahah~ we're suppose to pick out an area of the topic and go deep into it... and to also pick out the chemistry elements in it and elaborate... think it shld be quite alright, wish me luck!

fishes..... long time never see u all leh... really miss u all so much...... yi xian and huiping, i'll always pray for both of u... tt u'll tide over this period and pass ur promos exams with flying colors.... wishing u both all the best..... missing u alot.... as for sandy and jy, i've always treat both of u as my sisters, do take care and i'll nv forget u! love u.... jo, must jia you k? but dun be so vain le...... ur face and features (whether u're pretty or nt) reflects ur thoughts... wishing u all the best in everything u do... love ya all!~ i think the next time we see each other would be my housewarming ba.... must come hor... i promise i'll prepare nice food for u all... cya! mUackZ!!!!'

Posted by reticent_aura at 9/04/2003 11:27:00 AM