Friday, April 30, 2004

didn't go sch for obc paper today.. first time nv sit for exam. thought wld be going yesterday.. but.. sigh.. last night my temp raised like mad.. had chills so have to cover myself with blanket. but my temp shot up to 39.9 degree celsius. wanted to take a bath.. but after i took off all my clothes, my whole body just kept trembling non stop. even with water frm water heater.. couldn't take it so got dressed and ran out.. haiz.. felt really terrible coz of the pain in my throat.. and oh.. just discovered a drug allergy frm the medicine i've taken frm ttsh.. yep.. so i consulted the doc near my hse again. and she told me to continue taking the strong antibiotics..

oh.. now i noe. nowadays there're no more op to take out tonsils.. at most they'll only inject antibiotics to stop infection.. yep.. so she was telling me, if medicine no use, then i'll have to take the injection. hope everything's fine..

Posted by reticent_aura at 4/30/2004 06:27:00 PM

Thursday, April 29, 2004

pia-ing for obc now.. sigh.. my fever got worse last night at ard 2+... took temp for ard 4 times.. 38.9degree celsius. lol.. was kinda shocked.. then my mum tried alot of remedies on me. drinking cold water and using a cold towel on my forehead. the pain in my throat was unbearable. can't even swallow my saliva properly. really terrible. and feeling really frail and weak. then really no choice. my parents took cab with me down to tan tock seng hospital ard 4+ to the emergency area.

so after consultancy and all, the doc told me to finish my strong antibiotics my GP gave me. he told me it's tonsillities. and right now, lol. i thought of jolene. haha.. and how she felt at tt time. really terrible. yep.. then i was given this strong medicine again, with also another tablet to protect my stomach frm the medicine. yep. sigh.. oh.. got mc frm the doc. and still deciding whether or nt to go ahead with obc paper. we shall see yah.. but now, i feel at least a little better frm last night. quite happy. haiz.. throat very very painful... and very xing ku.. boo hoo hoo.

jia you hard hard..

Posted by reticent_aura at 4/29/2004 04:22:00 PM

Tuesday, April 27, 2004

im still very sick.. still having giddy spells. and thumping thumping in my head.. just took temp.. still 37.8 degree Celsius. feeling really terrible. went out to buy herbal tea. almost fainted.. really giddy so i bent down.. and felt alright after tt.. terrible. terrible.

haven't smile for 3 days. the last time was on sunday. when kenny sent me a song by gareth gates - say it isn't so. i listened till i cried. and he referred gareth gates as carrot cakes.. which made me actually smile. really thankful to him. but for the past 2 days, i frown alot. actually more than tt of my entire life. i was depressed. and more so now. but im nt gonna let it take control over my personal self.

nobody really noes im sick. except myself. and i relent frm going to a doc. and was just thinking. would ppl actually cry for me if i die. miserable. pathetic self. i promised myself i mustn't cry. never ever. NEVER. will i cry.

hopes are nt meant for hoping. coz they're FAKE. they're only there to console u. they're NEVER TRUE. dun lie to urself. get a life. because they only exist as hopes, nt facts.

miserable. depressed. ultimately bumped onto the floor of HELL. with a loud thud.

Posted by reticent_aura at 4/27/2004 06:02:00 PM

Monday, April 26, 2004

dang. took the 4th time of temp since the last time.. just bathed...and it's still 37.8 degree Celsius.. nt gonna see doc. torment myself and die. can't eat at all.. still feelin depressed.. and every other bad feelings under the sun..

Posted by reticent_aura at 4/26/2004 07:56:00 PM

37.8 degrees Celsius. dizzy spells. headache. cannot eat. nt tt i dun wan to.. but CANNOT. nt gonna see doc. depressed. sad. terrible. heartbroken. cannot describe. painful. pls just let me concentrate on studying. lord........... i noe u're the only one who's good to me. heartache. loneliness. weariness.

Posted by reticent_aura at 4/26/2004 07:13:00 PM

Sunday, April 25, 2004

dun wanna blog. .this song explains it all..

nelly furtado - try

All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try

All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
In our love
We are free in our love

Posted by reticent_aura at 4/25/2004 11:40:00 PM

Saturday, April 24, 2004


To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.

To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.

To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident.

To realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics.

To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.

Time waits For no one.
Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when
you can share it with someone special.

Posted by reticent_aura at 4/24/2004 09:33:00 AM

Thursday, April 22, 2004

it's gonna rain soon.. always love it when it rains.. wheeeeeeeeeeeeee... =)
went out with yung after doing project today.. been quite a while since im out at the mall.. wahaha.. SOBz..

oh.. yvonne added me in frenster yesterday.. i was kinda shocked.. first ques in my mind - "who is she?" then she sent me a frenster message, telling me that she was my pri 1-4 classmate.. haha.. so i approved her and added her to msn.. very surprised that she'd add me.. in my memories of pri1-4, i only remember and kept in contact very well with joyce and annabel... but ha! ta daa.. lol... i got really excited and all..

plus this morning, i met up with elayna and yan to finish up bantumi project. saw annabel at the bus stop and chatted with her throughout the bus journey to sch.. wahaha.. so happy.. as both of us mentioned about all the sch mates we knew in pri sch and all those memories. really swt swt childhood we had together. about all the ppl we still can remember and kept in contact with.

also laughed off the incident which happened when i was in pri 4... i was really playful and crack my elbow's bone when i fell.. heh.. ended up didn't go sch for a wk and when i went back to sch, ms ng dragged me in front of the class and demanded me to explain to the class where i went for the past wk.. lol.. i was truly embarrassed.. heh.. so when i told them tt i injured my arm at the market, they broke into laughter.. and i was there laughing at my own dilemma.. oh shucks.. truly embarrassed..

cheers to all townsvillians '98... i spent 7 yrs of my life there.. 1 yr of kindergarten 2 and 6 yrs of primary.. adieus.

Posted by reticent_aura at 4/22/2004 06:00:00 PM

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

hmmm.. been days since i last blogged... rushing thru vb project last weekend. ended up nt good enuff for us to even substain a c.. borderline pass max said.. sigh. so ma fan. we decided to just do wad we can and submit on friday. just had cell bio prac test today, alright lar.. nothing kinda matters.. har. then reached hm at 12 plus after doing abit of vb project. was freaking bored till now, tt's y i decided to embrace my blog and sob.

yep. bummed ard at hommie frm 12 plus till now, gunbound, surf and listen to music. planning to go out and have fun these few days.. and mugged really hard for the coming exams.. first paper next fri. sianz. way to go M02s...

(= oh, to dar.. happy 3 yrs 6 mths anni yesterday. jeez. i didn't forget it at all. just didn't blog.. love ya. =)

Posted by reticent_aura at 4/20/2004 04:16:00 PM

Thursday, April 15, 2004

happy 18th birthday my dearie!

hey gurl.. we've been thru so much.. miss all ur kicking and pinching.. wld love to sing sun yan zi to irritate u again. thanks for all the care and concern u've shown towards me. u're one of the best buds i have who understands me well. heh. i wun forget to reserve the post of future bridesmaid for u.. i must admit tt u're quite indecisive in doing things, but hey, im always there to provide a listening ear and helping hand. just bear in mind tt for wadeva u wanna do, give it a shot. dun condemn something b4 u do it. thanks for all the joy u've embedded in my life. heh. =)

Posted by reticent_aura at 4/15/2004 12:21:00 AM

i've finally had my fair share of peaceful sleep last night without having to worry about nt being able to skim thru my notes. yep. finally managed to survive thru all those tests since last wk till today. today's prac and theory tests were quite alright. tt is easier than expected. at least the orange of the xantotropic test was obvious. and tt's nice enuff. knew tt the exposed photographic film and amylose were gonna come out for theory part. quite alright all in all.

did a good deed today. on the way back home in bus 74 with eugene, there was this gurl who got fits halfway thru bukit timah rd in the bus. the malay woman who was sitting beside her freaked out and didn't even shout for help before she darted out of the door. the gurl just laid on her lap and had seizures.. but the least she could do was to at least shout hey! help her or something! but she didn't.. she just yelped and ran out. then the bus driver stopped the bus. the rest were just staring at the gurl blankly dunno wad to do. i was like "wth, get something for her to bite on, so tt she wun bite her tongue. " so yep.. i called the ambulance after tt and gave them the rd name.. waited for quite some time b4 the paramedics came. by then, she was already conscious. then they took her away in the ambulance and we're off to our journey home.. the bus uncle was kind, told me tt he wouldn't take any more passengers, and wld just carry on the route without stopping unless someone wanted to alight. oh, eugene even asked me if i was frm st john.. i was er.. no way .. i have experience.. ask my closest buds and u'll noe.

i felt very good after the whole thing. quite surprised at myself too. tt i was actually calm throughout the whole situation. it reminded me of the incident dated back 3 yrs 6 mths ago. but hey, if it was my frens , family or HIM, who wouldn't panick? but as for today. i dunno tt gurl at all. so it makes a difference. do u think alah will forgive tt woman? if it was me, i'd freak out too.. but i think i'd just shout for help before i run out. nvm. she isn't to blame anyway. ugly side of human...
yah.. so it was like 6 pm when i reach home. exactly an hr and 15 minutes. but i felt extremely good. especially after the tests "hangover"... thank lord for today..

Posted by reticent_aura at 4/15/2004 12:10:00 AM

Tuesday, April 13, 2004

feel so uncomfortable now.. alot of heatiness in my body.. just took temp.. 37.4 degree celsius.. sigh.. studied quite hard for the past few days.. though the sense of achievement is there, but i'll tend to fall sick after all those studying.. oh man.. really dun feel like preparing for tml's prac test.. got theory somemore.. piece of shit. gotta hafta do well for tml's test. so tt at least can pull up exam grades.. sux core man.. sigh. i wanna go out for a breather of air.. the pressure suppresing in me causes me to be so miserable. teared again. boo hoo, emo me.

Posted by reticent_aura at 4/13/2004 08:33:00 PM

Sunday, April 11, 2004

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Posted by reticent_aura at 4/11/2004 05:49:00 PM

Friday, April 09, 2004

Fast Response Specialist

i wanna be a fast response specialist.. heh. but exactly firm on it. knew tt i'm gonna change it anytime soon but who cares.
anyhoos.. fast response specialist (hmm, i shld have gotten the name correctly ba..) is someone who rides a bike to the scenes of accident reaching faster than the ambulance or the fire engine. then tt person is suppose to take control of the situation, help to do first time reviving of those casualties with his/her medical kit. yep. then when the paramedics or firemen come, she/he is gonna report the situation and tell them wad to do. wahaha`

i find this job really kewl. hee.. yep. and im kinda firm on learning to ride a bike after 10th july. my brothers and 'rents are all actually quite supportive of it.. heh.. i wan a C1!!! lol it's actually bike with shelter, windscreen and seat belt. how cool is tt.... lol

(By the time i'm still halfway posting this, dar just woke up with his gong ji tou.. wahhaa pig sia)
muacks to dar... his dad somehow got cranky and spoke abt something call... ermmmmmm......... u noe wad....... and i was like ermmmmmmmmmmmm.................... tt's it. back to serious partying.

Posted by reticent_aura at 4/09/2004 11:40:00 AM

Monday, April 05, 2004

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greetings to everyone.. been kinda busy these days, yep, ask the M02s.. suddenly felt like i dun have a life at all.. sitting through classes everyday and exerting myself out like a lifeless form of human. this kinda feeling is horrid.. seems like my soul is not with me.. hmmm`

everything is so packed together.. darn wad do they have? the power of coagulation? congrats, but sry, i dun need tt.. doesn't even have time to take a breather of air.. tml another test. 4 more next wk.. especially worried about VB prac test. well well. sux at codings. wahaha` plus also webby project due next wk. and vb programming project due the wk after. may god please blast me first.

enuff abt tt.. powerwebmusic been kinda screwed up lately.. very slow plus also bad links to their songs. nothing seems to be good. sIgh.. the scenario of always Dragging myself to sch lately dreads me. having not enuff sleep also puts me off. what can i do. when we're left with no choice at all. i dun wanna repeat any modules. just gotta fight. yep.. but with a tired heart tt is. been a faithful student. of cuz nt a perfect one who doesn't slack at all. i slacked most of the time. but i do all my stuff.

thanks to dar. for always encouraging me.
for all the M02s who are fighting along with me.

thanks to lord too.. but hey, i'm 3 mths underage to watch the passion for christ.. oh man. im old enuff to watch those gory parts.. SADED

*kk.. back to studying the dumb mitosis, meiosis and mendel's genetics..*

Posted by reticent_aura at 4/05/2004 10:48:00 PM